"What I'm dealing with is so vast and great that it can't be called the truth. It's above the truth." - Sun Ra

Monday, August 5, 2019

LOS ESPOOKYS is a "Reality": Four Points of the Future's Compass Towards Disclosure

The new Spanish language spook comedy LOS ESPOOKYS is genius. See it at once and ponder the nature of magical realism, alive and well in this surrealist Mexico. Read my main piece, focusing on the show itself and some of my more intellectual (Jungian/Lacanian) theories here.

But the show also illustrates, to my warped mind anyway, a lot of flakier (truer!) theories involving the duality of reality and myth as having no clear dividing line (other than a small piece of Moebius strip tape. 
Because, you see, whether you believe in Astrology or Not: 


One of the benefits of being a Pisces, for me, is my ability to comfortably hold two contradictory paradoxical opinions at the same time - thus we can believe astrology is total bullshit and yet, know it's also true, since if it wasn't, we would believe in it approximately the same as everyone else does or doesn't. Pisces can believe ghosts and demons are the product of sleep paralysis and latent schizophrenia and that they are a real phenomenon. We can even prove it (to ourselves, if we want to be bothered) via the mountain of evidence recorded by cameras, radar, EMF detectors, suddenly-manifesting wounds and scratches, and other macabre physical evidence. There are reasons these things refuse to become proven or disproven beyond reasonable doubt.

If you can imagine a world where alien visitation (or a captured bigfoot) is a socially 'over the counter' reality, you're not thinking clearly - not imagining the whole picture. The entire social fabric as we know it would be ripped out and replaced with an wet ink facsimile smudgy from the four fingered hand of the God that made us. Everything would change - our entire paradigm would be out the window. To know this is true we have to merely examine the phenomenon of cargo cults as petite reflections of our own religious paradigm (angels=alien visitors /teachers/builders).  The difference is, we left objects with the cults which prove we were there - cans of peaches, plane propellors, etc. And there's not been enough millennia to wear them down to dust, the way only stone survives as proof "they" were here - stones so massive, and so far from their quarries, they seem to have been left for us, thousands of years later, to argue about and for some of us to go "whoa" and others to go "no" and close their ears to the idea that no primitive civilization could lug 100 ton, perfectly carved rocks hundreds of miles over mountains regardless of how many slaves they had.

But part of that is that despite the difference in technological savvy, we still treated the natives as more or less equals. The way we're abducted and tagged with implants lets us know the aliens don't regard us as equals, at least not all of us. We're more like a game reserve, a federally protected forest which aliens get permission to enter, ostensibly to study our migratory habits, abducting, weighing, measuring, taking samples, then tagging us before releasing us back into the wild (or some not-so good aliens disguise as anthropologists but secretly steal us away, sell us to labs for illegal experiments, etc). We're not animals - we are animals + them - seeded ten thousand years ago or so by gold-digging Annunaki by mixing ape with alien DNA to get slaves who could understand language and mine gold so Enki could kick back with a sixer, broh.

If the aliens come back, all our religions and science textbooks will become meaningless. Our stature as inferior 'natives' will be mighty hard to shrug off. Neither side, if they've thought it through, wants that. If we rock the boat it will tip over.

We need to go slow: right now we're at accepting the presence of water on Mars and in asteroids, we're "ready" to accept the panspermia theory, and, slowly, one Friday night at a time, the 'ancient alien' hypothesis. I see it as a multi-directional approach, a kind of pyramid shape where disparate, seemingly unconnected sides are all headed towards a particular peak point (probably still a few decades from now) where there will be no need for 'disclosure' - anymore than there was a need for your parents to finally give you that sex talk.

These four directions are headed towards a specific point. Though they are all seemingly unrelated now, I predict they will all connect/intersect in approximately 10 years, probably right in time to distract us from the total death of our oceans. 

1. West Side: Legit Scientific Speculation: Big brains like Stephen Hawking and SCI channel astronomers like to theorize on what kind of aliens might be living on far away moons, or what would happen if they attacked our planet, etc. While this theorizing, which totally ignores all the alien theories and witnesses' testimony, is perhaps insulting to those who believe in the alien presence and have mountains of evidence to prove it, this nonetheless thoughtful (SCI channel-animated) theorizing constitutes a legitimate direction - a means by which tenured scientists can give voice to these possibilities without drawing flak from their peers. Smithsonian and Science Channels are the one that don't seem to support the alien hypotheses fully yet, though they regularly run shows that seem to promise the opposite. I  predict that--gradually--their speculation will begin to match up with the hidden reality, until slowly their final 'what if?' shows will have the 'what if?' part quietly removed in reruns, and be deftly re-presented as factual documentary, seamlessly enough to avoid a panic, the way Disney released, quietly, a TV documentary that took all alien theorizing as fact, albeit in conjunction with the opening of their Alien ride, which they added at the end, also as fact.

2.  East side: Getting high and watching Ancient Aliens (and other UFO TV shows): Hey, there's nothing more 'out there' (so they tell me) than vaping some Sour Diesel on a Friday evening after work and watching an Ancient Aliens marathon (it's on Friday --the perfect time) and imagining both the scene back in our ancient past via the visitors and looking forward to a future where these truths are self-evident. My girlfriend is sick of my obsession with this show. As far as she's concerned, there hasn't been any new evidence and--until the ice caps melt enough for us to explore those pyramids in Antarctica, it's just a tease. But for me, it's something so vast, such a big issue, that I can just lose myself in it no matter how ridiculous and out on a limb they go. I look at the moon; she looks at the finger, to paraphrase an old Zen koan.

Is this maybe part of why weed is so decriminalized? Is it the gateway through which we can 'let in' this massive paradigm shift?

Smoking Gun: Implants removed and studies under microscope
3. North: Strides in Anti-Gravity Propulsion: As a kid I used to argue that if space was a vacuum why not turn off the power or reverse the flow of air so the bag collapses instead of expands.  It was a misunderstanding of 'vacuum' (i.e. the noisy thing mom uses) but it's still a legit question. Using magnetic energy via charged mercury in a rapid circular spin, we can bend space time and collapse the vacuum between solar systems - like our alien creators do (we reverse-engineered it). Once we master this technology the issue of the vastness of space disappears. The idea of sending settlers to Mars via a normal rocket-powered space capsule will seem as archaic as walking from New York to California instead of taking a passenger jet aircraft. Our understanding of magnetic power is currently very backwards: we should be looking at acupuncture vs. the placement of pyramids and ley lines - for there is massive energy we can tap just from the power of the earth. If we'd followed the lead of Tesla instead of Edison, we might be there already.. Either way, it's inevitable, and our knowledge of space and other worlds will grow exponentially.

4. South: Discoveries of life on other planets slowly working up the evolutionary ladder. 
Right now we're at the protozoa stage, micro-organisms found in meteors. Soon science will allow the discovery of small insect life fossilized in the Martian rock- gradually we'll work our way up to fish and other animals so that when we finally arrive at fellow human or humanoid intelligence we're not as freaked out - we're 'acclimated' - the equivalent of a depressurizing tank to avoid getting the bends, a kind of DNA erector set course, taking us from single-celled organisms to humans in just a few more decades.
Think I'm wrong? I hope I am, in a way. But there just wasn't enough time, Michael. We're going to have to get our heads out of our navels and join the family business soon, as there'll be no 'here' left to fritter our way to parity on.

Tuesday, May 7, 2019

Four Points of the Future's Compass (Beyond all Opposites)

Sometimes you're astral traveling and you get caught in the net of a laughing evil planet-sized god -- Saturn revolves under you like a giant Medusa head, its mouth a giant roaring equatorial cave of blue and red flame larger than the Eurasian continent. You stay suspended in place, a fixed position above the rotating gas giant, right at the equator, waiting for her gaping maw to be rotate back around under you - at which point she will swallow you up, and you will become merely an endless scream of burning agony. Such terror you've never known. It goes deeper than mere conscious mortal fear of death, or a Christian's fear of Hell. It is a fear so deep your unconscious mind speaks up, for and through you. It's suddenly clearer than it ever was, like a dad whose been slumbering in the back seat during your student driving lesson suddenly leaning forward and taking the wheel. It's like a dream rushing up from the archetypal depths of your mind; almost another being entirely seizes control of your language functions. And--though you are basically lying on the floor in your apartment, or in a lotus position before a candle and incense burner, safe--presumably--at home, your third eye dream has become bigger than reality, to the point that, even if you're sitting there alone, you grow so terrified of an unseen specter you promise it anything. You promise Medusa, that evil Salvia goddess whom the astrologists named Saturn, anything to let you go. You vow to build her temples and--most importantly--to sacrifice animals and virgins and whomever else, in your stead. If you deny her a meal of your soul, you must replace your nutrients with someone else.

You come out of the trance knowing where the idea of human sacrifice got started. There was a time when these unconscious-realm-dwelling deities weren't so hard to access. In the wild terror of the dark primordial night, deranged from hunger and cold, that Medusa mouth was never more than a soggy flint rock or missed spear away. Maybe Jesus saved us from that, said I'll take care of that crazy gorgon, you're with me now. But then human souls find themselves in a tug of war between sides, Medusa ever pulling us away from the light  and vice versa. Slowly though, we're movie forward.

Here's four directions forward that I see will intersect down the line. These four elements are now far away from each other on a four point axis, but will intersect ahead on the time line, like a long pyramid shaped gust.

And what will be the result - Greys. Us. Gravitational wave Surfing, Hive Mind, and so much more:

First, let us look at space travel:

Right now huge projects are preparing to send humans to mars and to colonize the moon for future use as a launch pad for other outer journeys. But in all cases the factor is time - without gravitation wave generation, which seems to be already in the works on some level (as seen in recent episodes of Ancient Aliens and all the other UFO-related programming), we're stuck at the idea of sending humans into small pods for a year or more just to get to Mars.

To conceivably make this less stressful and resource heavy, we should remake ourselves into being free of the need to eat, shit and move around, to not have huge bodies built to fight gravity, able sleep over long time warp distances.

What we would ideally be able to do is remotely inhabit android bodies.

Let's face it: 'cryo-sleep' is not practical and can be dangerous - it's like you're a mummy (is that why the Egyptians did that? They watched their 'gods' do the same thing before heading back home to Orion?) Why not have an 'inhabitable' robot that you can move via remote controls linked directly to your neurons via a computer-style headset?

They are already working in this area with amputees, and so we have our first direction:

Remote-inhabited Bio-bots 

Robotic limb replacement - i.e. arms with hands and fingers moved by impulses from the brain, attached directly into the user's mind or nerves, reacting to thought control (via headband or implant)- essentially using the same 'leftover' parasympathetic nerve response that leads to the 'phantom limb' syndrome.

--Eventual Destination - robotic beings controlled--inhabited, if you will--by human minds, robotic 'virtual' nervous systems (which might be how certain greys get their automated air)

Relative Cinema: 2009's SURROGATES (see:  The Wringer of Ringerhood)
Positing a future where--thanks to a breakthrough in robotics--no one actually goes outside but stays safe at home in little boxes where all their brains and bodies connect with surrogates--basically android/surrogate bodies--out in the 'real' world - thus being able to change one's looks, gender, etc. at will. Alas, this intriguing idea is undercut by the same old "two cops--one with wife problems--investigating a strange murder that draws them into various shadowy corners they never new existed" but along the way all sorts of meta commentaries on the web and (pre-CATFISH) posing in social media as other people, being 'who we want to be' etc.

PREDICTION: In the future we will have just such ringers/surrogates, but they will be all alike--allowing for a more streamlined and--due to ongoing demands for equal rights etc--less offensive and competitive system (when everyone is beautiful, beauty ceases to exist). Hence- ships will come staffed with androids of identical appearance (like the greys), who can be 'inhabited' from off-world by human physiolgical nervous system remotes when needed or desired.

HIVE MIND (by Google) 

HIVE MIND via the prevalence of WIKI, and instant access to the sum total of human knowledge with the speed of thought. At some point the 'cloud' becomes the Akashic Records. When? 10 years? 20?

It's already beginning to happen as rising costs of colleges vs. online education mix with the idea that actually learning and retaining information (via memorizing, etc.) isn't needed due to 'everything' being available online. i.e. the hive mind

Relative Cinema: 1973's ZARDOZ - (See Come and Get Your Yarbles)
The hive mind has its problems here, such as the occasional committer of bad vibes setting the whole group off and leading to exile. The Immortals' whole vibe is one of those 70s theater encounter groups, or any tight-knit acting class or troupe that does little weird everyone vocalizing and waving their arms in unison outcasting or accepting one of their number into the group mind via encounter group touching exercises. 

The addition of neural implants, jacks in the brain, or just smart drugs and cranial stimuli (directed shocks and jolts to activate certain areas of the brain) like the HARP version of electroshock therapy's organic all-encompassing reset button storm. Directed electrical jolts through the brain to decalcify the pineal and harmonic frequencies to attune it to a trans space/time vibratory level. This will help enable the group hive mind and connect us all to a mainframe like Google. A boost of the pareidolia component of vision will enable controlled hallucinations (i.e. projections in the mind's eye of each other when conversing on the web)

Direction North: 

Tachyons as  time travel communication across the GWW (Galaxy-Wide Web)

Time is measured out so that distance is affected by gravitation pulls (and lack thereof) and yet while a star blinks out millions of years ago and we only see it now, might we also not communicate with it and have it 'feel' real, so that the projection of a hive mind thought process beamed our way from Orion's Belt might reach our brain in the form of a dream (via tacyhons!). The being/s inhabiting the grey hive mind may be long dead but still they may control our destiny - this may be what fate is, the equivalent of playing a 4-D version of World of Warcraft with a being who is, technically, dead for billions of years as far as "you're" concerned, trapped as you are on the sticky flypaper conveyer belt of linear space-time.

Relative Cinema: 2014's INTERSTELLAR (see: Space is the Place (All right all right) Sun Ra Vs. Matt McConaughey

Matt floating along various areas of time represented by interlocked bands of card catalog style moments in time - via punching in numbers via books on shelves he can communicate to his daughter - which is not farfetched if you've experienced that dimensionless outside space/time zone of consciousness (hint - you can't get there with a 'you' but you are not you, are you? When you shucker off your 'you' persona, what's left? That's what gets there)

PREDICTION: Impossible (to predict, not to 'happen')

Direction South:
(Disclosure is a Personal Choice)

Our own brains are organic matter and as such depend on other organic matter for maintenance whereas computer chips need no food other than electric current. Once the technological singularity is achieved, we'll be wise to join 'em rather than beat 'em. Technology will no longer be our servant but our partner. We've been working towards it since the dawn of man, just as parents want to instill their values and genes on their progeny so they may in some way live on, so in our toil to create artificial intelligence, a 'sentient' being of our own design. We hope it shall not be snotty and shallow like Frankenstein who found consciousness in lightning to restore dead tissue but never did fathom what consciousness was or is and where it comes from and then ran off in horror as soon as he saw it reflected back at him (worst... parent... ever). This will be the reverse - we will have fathomed and created consciousness. It will be our first true offspring. The next generation.  Was our own human soul tinkered together over timeless aeons in some God/Reptilian -run laboratory?



We will merge our bodies and minds willingly with the AI to become immortal and larger than ourselves. Gradually we will be the best of both worlds as our silicone chips merge with synthetic muscle for a new form of biotech  Our bandwidth will extend into the galaxy enabling us to snapchat with space travelers light years away in real instant time (which technically means time travel due to the great distances). Nanobot technology will repair our bodies as they age and restore neurological connections in the brain - accumulated wisdom without the detriments of old age (senility, etc) will make us gradually godlike. We will be truly ready for cross-galaxial travel, understanding at last the way the Einstein-Rosen bridge must, by definition, transcend time itself. Hence if we will ever cross it, we already have crossed it, long ago.

That's why it seems always that our future self was at work in the distant past, helping us sow the seeds of our future deliverance (even to the point of spreading plagues and inciting war in a vain effort to keep population levels stable).


When communicating across galaxies can be done in an instant--via worm hole/telegraph-style tachyons-- we won't need UFO disclosure for we'll recognize at last the grey alien as the result of all four of these points of the compass now having finally MET.  The artificial shell for our remote inhabitation will be one not bound up by earth gravity but will be constrained by size - hence smaller and lighter in form to make space travel easier (the ideal astronaut is four feet tall and weighs under 90 pounds, not generally burdened with the kind of weighty skeleton needed for fighting gravity on a daily basis, big eyes to see in the dark, able to float and walk through walls.

means ARCHONS 
Finally, we'll know just whose AI we are, for they will come pick us up. Wondering why the bandwidth they've been siphoning off our collective psyches is suddenly dwindling as we use it for ourselves. Maybe they won't be mad, maybe they'll just smile and realize they've helped create their own obsolescence. Time to leave the nest. Will we be as generous when our own AI does the same thing to us? Or will our creators blanche in horror like Dr. Frankenstein or those giant albinos in the ALIEN series, and reach for the Great Flood Mach Deux reset button?


Once we're connected via the internet (widened to hive mind level), controlled remotely, inhabited by far away beings using bodies like remote piloted drones to the extreme, connected to all the universe even backwards or forward in time, via signals saddled to tachyon, augmented by post-technological singularity AI, we'll be ready to visit remote blue planets and start studying the local populations, making sure to hide any electronic tags we use to study their migration, and to wipe their memories clean of our contact to avoid panic and recognition (the collapse of their developing society).

Sound familiar? Disclosure is a choice! Don't let a planet's still-developing population know the truth of your existence, unless you want their progress to stop in favor of blind cargo cult worship Gradually, 200 years or so after your ship departs, they're no longer using the tools you left behind, but worshipping them as relics, making sacrifices and offering prayers to the leftover soda cans and cigarette butts you left, praying for a return of the canned peaches you once shared with them. Then they disappear altogether, like the Easter Islanders. Instead, better to hide yourself until they're ready.

The good papa doesn't rush to steady his infant who's finally learning to walk. He waits until the child can walk over to him before sweeping it off the floor into his heavenly arms. So it is with the obelisk in 2001. So it is with this situation.

This is all dependent on whether we still have a planet in 20 years, but hey - at least this time we can rest assured that we created the flood this time! Progress not perf.....arghhh


Wednesday, March 1, 2017

Remembering my 2012 Galactic Alignment Euphoria, Non-Duality, Quetzlcoatl Visions, Cult Leadership, and Inevitable Fever

Or at any rate compiled.

It was November, 2012, the History Channel was alive with pre-apocalyptic visions for Dec. 21, 2012. It marked the end of the Mayan calendar. I had been doing deep meditation after work every day with a light-sound machine triggered to an Amazon shaman chant in preparation. One afternoon shortly before the election (or after) a voice told me that if I was ready to let go of all judgment, to 'recuse myself from the bench' of judging all things as good or bad (as if all things--or anything--needed my judgment or were influenced by it, surely that we think things do is the greatest and most prevalent of human follies!), then  all would be revealed, my sins would be lifted, and I could sneak into paradise offered by the galactic alignment of 2012. Then, Obama won a second term, and all the slowly gathering dread we were feeling should we get stuck with a zealot like Mitt Romney (oops- a judgment!) fell away... The conjunction of all these factors opened me up to a kind of non-duality I'd only experienced in glimpses in years past. It was a euphoria beyond an opposite. There was no 'crash' from this high - no bad or good side, all was sideless --if that makes any sense.

For around the next seven weeks, I lived a sainted life - swore off masturbation, anger, meat, and sugar - started eating lots of fresh fruit and vegetables and blessing everyone and everything, mindful of my tendency to do the opposite (realizing our language's preference to 'damn' things rather than 'praising' them - as if the devil was working our lazy language habits.) This wore off when I realized my body was failing me under the limits of a vegan diet, also when the apocalypse never came, and later when I got a massive flu that laid me up for a solid week. When the fever broke, my galactic alignment euphoria was gone - a message was left in the psychic zone where it was stored - it read (translated): "we harvested your soul energy; don't try to get it back- just go back to your old life of duality and unconscious semi-contentment OR ELSE we'll come back and take the rest too- love, the Archons." 

Now that enough time has passed it's not as painful to recall, I present the sum total of my writing at the time for what its worth, may it inspire or at least confound in a not unpleasant manner.

The Preliminary High:

A Hole in Me Pocket: Beetles, EST, YELLOW SUBMARINE (11/13/2012)
CinemArchetype 19: The Holy Madman (11/10/2012)
Claire Forlani Drinks Dewars; Carrie Matheson, Andrzej Zulawski's SZAMANKA (1996) and Angela Chase (11/04/12)

In conjunction with all this, a whole elaborate fusion of (semi-fake) cult and guerrilla theater sprang fully formed to my brain, beamed down if you will, replete with elaborate costumes and staging all of which I had access to via working at Pratt Institute. However, plans were scrapped when, beginning around mid-Feb 2013, I had a massive fever - which kept me crazy and bedridden for over a week. When my fever finally broke, the whole plan, the impetus, the will, the drive, to continue with this project was gone, along with my illumination and everything else. Was it celestial Archons 'harvesting' the energy garnered by my cosmically aligned awakening, riding its tail like the space vampires of the great 1985 film LIFEFORCE? or just a case of weakened immune system due to trying to live totally vegan after a lifetime of meat eating here in a giant Nordic Viking body? Why can't it be both, and more? Either way, I give you the complete rise and fall of this illuminated state, from the first breakthroughs to the first few posts after my massive fever, to a final essay for the Weeklings. I'll be honest, some of it I can't even bring myself to read or see (such as the videos - which I've never watched since the day I made them). I do like the Quetzlcoatl Sutra, though.

Guidebook: Stage of Envelopment (11/28/12)
This means SWAR: Preliminary Guideline and Council to the Elderless (11/21/12)
Tarot of Swar of the Saints (11/13/12)
Welcome to the First Best-Dressed Feeling of Your Life (11/13/12)

Official Cult Literature (poetry and psalms)
The Vortex of Reticence and Reprisal (12/14/12)
Secrets of Quantum Immortality (12/2/12)
The Tao of Tailbiting (11/27/12)
The Long Dark Knight of the Soul (11/18/12)
The Quetzcoatl Sutra (11/14/12)
Dentist Buzzing Meditations 
+ God's Own Marksman) (belatedly released)

Video: (11/25/12)

Drug of Choice: 4:44 LAST DAY ON EARTH (12/17/12)
The Psychedelic Scrooge Satori (Dec. 12, 2012)
Yes, Virginia, the World DID End Yesterday (Dec. 22, 2012)
A TREE FALLS IN BROOKLYN + Bright Lights + Swar of the Saints 
+ SIMON OF THE DESERT (11/20/12)
The I Ching answers questions about THE MASTER (11/27/2012)

Non-Apocalypse Depression; Fever:
2012 is a Memory: No Apocalypse, No Aloha (1/4/12)
Bust through your Program! Archons, Laura Eisenhower and the Blood Fountain Antennae (2/8/12)
Flo - The Great and Powerful, and the Ludovico Flu: THE GREAT ZIEGFELD -2/16/13
The Archons Got Me (3/27/13)

Looking Back at the End of the World (The Weeklings - 12/19/13)

Tuesday, January 31, 2017

The 'Remembered' Primal Scene and the Inquisitor's Lash

If you worry all the time, God thinks you don't trust Him as a parent. Dads should put their children at ease. The kids should fear only truly fear one thing - His wrath. When they love him but fear his wrath they don't stray from the fold for they feel protected there. But even then, in the dark depths of their Mordor basement subconscious, everything is topsy-turvy, so that dad they so adore by day--that peerless God of love and light whose wrath is easily avoided by being good--is a devil of darkness and evil for whom no amount of goodness will suffice. His hugs and head pats distort into sexual molestation and abuse; his carefree protective spirit morphs into ritualized endangerment and evil laughter. These things are inescapable as one can't will away the distortion in one's reflection on a pond after a frog jumps in. Closing your eyes does no good. The waves have you pegged. Serial killers are born when they identify with the rippled reflection when they become what they fear.

In HAXAN: WITCHCRAFT THROUGH THE AGES we see several medieval women of various ages and class strata tortured by the clergy into revealing the sabbaths they attended, naming names and citing abusers, leaving us to wonder if these confessions are real, just lies to get the torture over with, or some kind of primordial unconscious shared memory kicked loose by prolonged agonies. Maybe if you torture any person long enough, they'll 'remember' the witches sabbaths they attended, the torture itself will create the sabbath from the ether; they will name onto you the persons there and who did or didn't kiss the arse of Lucifer. Hypnotize a kid deep enough they'll remember some kind of occult basement ritual involving all sorts of sexually depraved initiations (sex with parents and neighbors and demonic chanting robes); hypnotize an adult and they'll remember going aboard a space craft and being probed by aliens. Either way, maybe it's the same innate response, the primordial color bars, like the video from Heywood Floyd that pops onto the monitors to explain the Jupiter mission after HAL is taken apart (the mechanical equivalent of hypnosis) in 2001: A SPACE ODYSSEY.

The question arises: is it all the same psychic phenomenon? Does prolonged trauma and psychic intensity suspend conscious discernment between truth and illusion, dream and waking, and thus triggering either FMS (False Memory Syndrome) or some kind of vivid sleep paralysis reflection of the current scene being endured (i.e. the hypnotist or inquisitor being reflected as Lucifer) or that aforementioned primal extended trauma in the delivery room and then the baby ward behind the glass? Does it kick loose the barriers put there around our minds, the way a sandcastle hems in a piece of the ocean suddenly kicked open by a bored child as the tide rolls over it?

The "remembered" Satanic rituals in the Middle Ages occurred in the deep woods, which at the time were still full of strange monsters, especially in the dead of night.  If you lived in the deep woods just getting up to go the outhouses at three AM was probably the scariest thing in the world. still largely unexplored and perfect for the unconscious's projection of itself. By contrast, for modern rituals, in the suburbs, it's always the parents' basement. My therapist told me that when we were doing dream analysis - the basement is always the unconscious. So now anytime your dream takes you to a basement, you know where you are.

Hold that "thought" for a moment dear listener... but you can't. It's already gone, until lifetimes from now someone tortures or hypnotizes it out of you.

I've come to some bizarre conclusions about the way differentiation of self occurs - the 'break' from total unification with the oceanic Mother/I AM beyond space and time. Wanna hear 'em? Maybe I can first explain via this collage:

Keep it in mind while you consider the delivery room where you were born and initially, painfully, differentiated. Consider the total darkness of the womb with closed eyes, and then opening them with a painful spank on the ass the immediate intake of air into the lungs like kickstarting a lawn mower, kicking a wonky TV. Remember the utter dependency, feeling of paralysis as limbs first begin to move, the various nurses arms, varying from sweet and nurturing to robotic and callous. Adults get all misty about it, but artists remember all too well the adjustment period from oh sweet nothing to a world of wipes and shots and shitting and--especially if you were born in the 60s-70s-- when breast feeding was considered unhealthy--being bottle-fed. No breast action ever; instead being forced to sleep in dark rooms with rows of other infants, each of you sequestered from the others by plastic or glass trays. This was considered preferential; meanwhile giant parents and masked nurses loomed over you like moai, peering through the glass, feeding you powdered formula from plastic bottles while they smoked unfiltered Luckies and exhaled in your face. Once in a while a very big nurse, meaner than the others, grabs you, roughly, and gives you some painful shot or demeaning diaper change, with all the nurturing care of a tired surly underpaid fast food worker.

Eventually, hey, it all works out. You get out of there and get to go 'home' with a crib (a new kind of cage) all your own - a nice mobile above it. You get a playpen, toys, stairs to climb like Everest. But oh man what a scary start. That infant care room is so cold and rough we endeavor to forget it as soon as possible; it's the original trauma, and it creates a kind of instant PTSD amnesia. Maybe we try at first to recall where we were before we got stuck in the roach trap womb, what important papers we never got to finish before the other guy shot us, or goodbyes never said because the roof collapsed or the killers got away because we were dead before we could identify them.... but unless we were experiencing stress high enough that our PTSD continues past this amnesiac barrier, we don't remember that trauma, the soul carries over only when it can fit on the head of a pin. Anything too traumatic might stick to our soul like chunks of flypaper, leaving us to scream with terrible nightmares of burning up in our fighter planes over Midway.

It's the same thing really, as Manchurian Candidate Monarch 7 programming (1). The trauma of delivery is duplicated, the orienting into a new identity compressed.

So do the math: masked figures, obscure chanting (medical jargon, foreign language?), pain, degradation, parents, aliens, giants. demons, arse-kissing and degrading ass related issues. lien anal probing = rectal thermometers = molestation = giant mean nurses = Satanic ritual. it all fits, man, like Freud fits into the drooling infant's crib.

Rather than try to insist aliens or Satanists are real or not, I prefer to take the Schrodinger's Cat approach - which is to study the phenomena of myth in these cases, for in 'knowing' for sure the aliens, or the Monarch mind control subjects, or Satanic basement pedophile cult networks in your neighborhood, etc. are real or not, the myth, the paranoia, dissipates, becomes either shame (how could you be naive enough to believe) or depression (good god the world is one evil cesspool). But when we don't know it's pure myth, a creeping dread tempered by doubt.

So instead of picking a side, think along those lines, the fluidity of the Schrodinger's Cat box, the in-between state is what gives these myths their hypnotic power. I only reserve judgement for those who would try to debunk too hard and vehemently, as if any doubt or open-ended phenomenon is their personal enemy, for they are like the audience member at the movies who--rather than get into the story and enjoy it--has to loudly scoff at how fake everything is, ruining it for everyone else. In the end, perhaps, this is the only way we can  contemplate such things. Just believing in magic might somehow will it into being - maybe the church understood that, they knew reality was not concrete, but ever fluid and leaking in all four directions.

As humans stuck in one mind, trapped in space/time, it's futile to try and separate the real from the imagined, the 'cover memory' vs. the dream symbolism as per Freud. The sabbaths recalled under church torture in the Inquisition, the ritual Satanic abuse at an institutional level 'remembered' by hypnotized children, and the sex power trips of higher dimensional reptilian alien beings inhabiting the bodies of powerful figures in world orders. and the primal scene of the "child being beaten" scenario in Freudian infantile sexuality - and the mysteries of adult initiation - the enigmatic terror and excitement of those childhood mysteries surviving into adulthood, kept alive through the magic of paranoia.

The old saying 'just because you're paranoid doesn't mean they're not out to get you' might well be reverse-engineered to mean that if you're paranoid they WILL be out to get you. Whoever 'they' are, they can somehow sense your senses sensing them. Your paranoia might be like a magnet, the way a person across the street senses you looking at them and turns to see you too --neither of you ever turn to look usually until that one moment.

Notice the men in black sometime, and suddenly they're everywhere. Ignore them and they disappear. Stare at them and they know you know and, suddenly, without a word, you're on their list. Unless you forget about it, and tell no one. Those you'd tell would only think you were crazy, anyway. How do you know you're off the list? When you stop worrying you are. It's not like it's going to get around the workplace or school. Your thoughts are your own; your vilest subconscious distortions are kept deep in the dungeon. Or are they? Someone is always listening. Only a fool believes they can't be fooled by their own perceptions. The ruler of your own unconscious, the unconscious's own ego (anima), is not always your friend. It depends on how well you treat her. Give her an artistic outlet, or sufficient sleep to whip up wild dream canvasses, give her a voice, a hole in the floor, and listen to her whispers, and she'll be your ally. Bottle her up and lock her in chains and she'll flood you with nightmares, and hysterical symptoms, until you see witches everywhere, and they devour you.

Eventually torture, fever blows open a hole in the floor. But hey, it's not your fault. You don't even know her.

1. presuming that exists in reality blah blah

Monday, January 9, 2017

Splice like the Wind

(pieces of this were orginally published elsewhere)

Science is a hypocrite. It preaches Darwin while sabotaging natural selection, working hard to ensure all our lazy breeders survive, right down to the most miserable of mutants. In short, science closes its one good eye and refuses to pay the consequences for its obscene benevolence. Never pausing in its ceaseless promotion of longevity, science gradually renders the world uninhabitable via overpopulation and a bankrupt social welfare/Medicare system. As they extend the lives of the elderly and prevent hideous burn victims, screaming crack babies, and comatose vegetables from the blissful death awaiting them like a nervous lover, science vehemently denies death its chance to truly heal the sick... planet.

In eradicating all viruses science turns us into a virus... it's only a matter of time before Earth wises up and sees a doctor about getting rid of us.

Take the theories on the origin of humanity: the Darwinian vs. the Creationism. Science says man was the result of chemicals swimming together for billions of years. Christian crazies say God created man from the dust of the stars, just two ways of saying the same thing! Why argue?!

Instead of man's origin let's talk about art: Van Gogh's "Starry Night" for example: Darwinsim would say Van Gogh didn't paint 'Starry Night' and it's not a picture of the night sky but merely a piece of stretched linen canvas heaped with different colored pigment applied via a brush operated by a half-ape Dutch schizophrenic. If Darwinists had their way, the painting would be attributable to the brush and the pigments, not the man. Come see the opening of the new 'Windsor 2" horsehair bristle! Man, that brush can paint. Creationism takes the opposite approach: Van Gogh couldn't have used a brush because he is a 'true' master - He created the work in seven days, hands-off, with his mind. It's not just a brush - it was never a brush. If he used a brush then somehow it wouldn't be 'divine.'

These are the sorts of art collectors who, for example, might get mad if their kid draws on the wall but has Twombly and Basquiat works 'worth' more than his kid's entire future college education two times over on the same wall - in fact if the kid scribbled something on the Twombly in pencil, the dad might not even notice.

TWOMBLY: This sells for more than your house

Take western medicine's initial response to the Chinese practice of acupuncture: only after decades of proven effectiveness are western hospitals allowing it into their buildings. Since western science isn't quite sure how it works they can't admit it does or they have to change their whole concept of the human body. Chinese medicine sees the body in terms of energy flow, chi, instead of western science's concept of the body as a series of organs connected to each other in a Rube Goldberg-like system.

Similarly, while science can admit life on other planets is all but a certainty and that our own technological evolution is limitless, alien visitation in the past is absurd. Scientists can create new life forms but the idea that someone created the scientists in the same manner is, to them, contemptible.

On the other hand, the Christians rear back at the idea that God might think in DNA, and dream time into existence via a matrix-like universal intelligence that permeates the galaxy. No, God is a person and don't ask them how they arrived at the idea of Him creating the world in seven days and seven nights without a spinning orb moving in a rotation around the sun to measure it in the first place. Right? Now, exhale, and then INHERIT THE WIND! That's the big argument reveal that cracks it wide open, Pollock!

A few years ago I was visiting a urologist for prostate trouble and I asked him about pumpkin seeds and stinging nettle and saw palmetto all the various herbal remedies I'd read about for prostates and he said "well, I am not allowed to say they work, but, I do take them myself," and he slipped me an email address to an expensive mix of the three. He couldn't ---due to his AMA bullshit oath, say they worked, but he knew they did, so bam. (PS - I never did get them, cuz I'm too damn cheap). Thank god (small 'g' cuz they'd want it that way) for those doctors who find ways around their profession's inflexible standards, to slip patients what actually works, regardless of whether or not it can proven via our current understanding of the body. Unless it can make the pharmaceutical industry a profit the medical industry won't bother with the enormous expense of proving an herb works to heal the body...so if no one can patent it, it can't work, because no one has confirmed it via clinical trials. And no one will pay for the trials if they can't patent it. Great logic, dad. That was the big argument I had with my father, a Merck market research analyst and pharmaceutical graduate when I was preaching the gospel of...what was I into then... ginko biloba? I can't remember... the memory one.

All of which leads up to SPLICE (2009).

SPLICE dares us to believe a weird-looking mutant couple (Adrien Brody and Sarah Polley), with Williamsburg hipster loft furnishings, are genius gene splicers. That seems rather wrong, even if we do see them on the cover of Wired, it doesn't convince us (nor does it ever in real life), nor do the interestingly-lit barns and basements where they keep their little Frankenstein kitten daughter-scorpion-hybrid. It's all a little too well-under lit and perfectly colored in dark greens and reds and perfectly stressed/aged furniture and inherited grandma afghans (see top).

But what does work on a believability chart is the sudden shift in the monster from CGI scorpion-kitten to human cat-eyed actress (Scorpio model Delphine Chaneac) whom they name 'Dren.' Both elements--the CGI and the actress-- deliver a knock-eyed performance that in its way reverses the switch from Jeff Goldblum to animatronic Brundlefy in David Cronenberg's remake of THE FLY.

Scenes of Dren leaping to and fro from the rafters, her scorpio tail like a monkey, work like a clinical trial-tested charm. Less effective however is all the tough corporate acting going on in the boardrooms as douche bag manager David Hewlitt spews testesterone-addled threats about closing down the program if the hipster duo doesn't produce results, then admonishes them about breaking Christian fundamentalist-enforced protocol using human genes in conjunction with animals. Make up ya mind, Hewlitt. Besides, you'll blow a gasket with all this 'playing both sides of the fence' scenery chewing.

I personally feel those concerned Christians should take a moment to protect not just the human hybrids but all hybrids, even if they're 10% cooked from animal DNA or CGI. Those bizarre bloody worm monsters the couple create early on seem like a mess of Franken-pain. Science should have to keep all these things opiated or else not make them at all. The cruelty with which even these supposedly hip scientists treat animals shows that on a certain elementary level they are worse than children torturing scorpions in THE WILD BUNCH. We can only hope a stray bullet takes one or both of them out and they keel over into the thriving mound of red ants.

The second round of horror comes with Sarah Polley's cruel treatment of Dren once they have to get her out of the lab. Locking her up in the barn, taking away her kitty, refusing to let her fly, run, swim, and crawl free, Polley's a real c--nt. When Dren's back butterfly bat wings sprout they look like tattoos from Red Dragon or Girl with the Dragon Tattoo come to life (or the tattoos that come to life in Elektra if anyone else saw that besides me), and with her bald head and alien eyes, Dren's a bit like Britney Spears or Sinead O'Connor.

O'Connor, as we may recall, got flak by drawing attention to the innate cold cruelty to children perpetrated by organized human power, in her case the Catholic church instead of biotechnological science, but the vibe is the same and in the end the real villain of the piece is Sarah Polley herself, dead-eyed determined to show the world that she can be as mean as Joan Crawford is to adopted daughter Christina.. as illustrated in MOMMIE DEAREST (1981).

c. Sofia Mauro
The bald head of Dren also conjures chemo, enhancing the idea of scientific torture and deprivation in the name of extending our lives even a hair longer. It may be too little too late, but at least the mad scientist genre has finally found its most worthy villain, a female scientist who, like St. Joan of San Antone herself, figures out a way to get around the messy laws of adoption and child protective services so she can torture, control, manage and stifle her daughter to her heart's content. Forget it Jake, it's science. There's no animal or human rights for a being that's neither. For a fucking scientist like Polley that's music to the ear.

Meanwhile, for the empathic amongst us, even a drawing of a screaming mouth can send us writhing to the floor in sympathy. Is that something admirable, or just a bid for attention gone seriously awry?

PS - 1-9-6
I got off topic, fuck it. There never was a topic. The topic was always death  - we avoid it too much for our own good. When I was at my peak of convergence 2012 enlightenment I stopped thinking these things, the population control anxieties, and started loving all creatures. My God/Alien/higher power told me I was 'recused from the bench' - meaning I didn't have to worry about it, 'they' had it taken care of. My job, they said, was to love all life as if it were my own children. And I was able to do that, even unto people I'd normally sneer at as I hustled past them on the street. All God's children glowed rosy and angelic.

Then... the cosmic alignment ended. I got super sick and woke up with all my chi absconded with by demonic harvesters, like ghost conductors whisking all our ticket stubs off the chair tops at the arrival of the last stop.

OR - I had a manic episode that lasted two months and was triggered via expectation of apocalypse; in other words, I had a nice messianic complex incident (I have one every three years, it seems) and then got sick from messing my diet up trying to be a vegan.

I'm a Pisces, so I don't believe in astrology, but I know it's true. If you get the inherent paradox of that statement, then you know what it is to be a 'mutable' sign. One fish swims in the mystical ether, the other smiles to itself and accepts it all might be a lot of hippie nonsense. The problem is, America can't relegate itself to the same harmonious dichotomy. America needs to be a Pisces and embrace its own duality. Maybe we can all agree that some higher power some of us choose to call God created man but he used apes as a jumping off point, as the paint and canvas if you will, to make his masterpiece, and maybe both the typical Christian idea of God and the atheists' idea of the Christian's idea are very shallow and outdated images. Maybe the God we first imagined as bored Sunday schoolers staring out the window isn't correct but that doesn't mean there is no God.

If we enhance our conception of God to include all things and people, the higher consciousness of which the entirety of our known universe is its full reflection, then we lose our terror of death, and maybe science can stop being so short-sighted.

Then again, when I start to feel afraid I might actually die, I panic and pray and shuttle through the Kubler-Ross 7 like my bald head's on fire.

Monday, October 17, 2016

Nigel Kneale's THE STONE TAPES and PTSD-- Theories of Residual Haunting Energy

Now it's common parlance for a very apt theory for hauntings as residual psychic energy recorded within the crystals and other minerals within old stone walls (in castles, especially), this can explain why older edifices such as castles and crumbling old mansions tend to be haunted more than plywood domiciles (unless said domiciles are build near major power junctions or rivers or above mineral deposits, aquifers, etc.

And maybe at the moment of your death, if it's violent and sudden enough, your terror and confusion can be so great that the moment right before your death you can unleash such a firestorm of latent psychic energy that you can create a rupture in the time-space continuum, like an LP with a note hit on a track that's so sharp and discordant the vibration causes the needle to skip out of its groove, and leaves that portion of your psyche behind, split off from the rest of your aura, to replay the same last few seconds or minutes of your life over and over - every new scream in mortal terror like the first, until even with a new record on the turntable that loop is still there, screaming maybe only loud enough to be heard during moments of high charge in the air (lightning storms, a child reaching puberty, etc.)

Either way it's fascinating to consider - especially if you follow the whole past life recovery phenomenon, lately taking off due to children and their parents being able to track down their child's past life via the internet - even to go and visit their old life's family--total strangers--and recognize them all by name, know where secret treasure is buried, et al. The unifying factor for them all is a brutal sudden shock death - one example even fell during 9/11; another was on the Titanic; another a Russian soldier who died in WW2, another a Navy pilot who went down in the Pacific. In each it's the idea that PTSD is such a powerful force, such a 'skip' on the album that it causes a stone tape sort of repetition even if the subject is still alive, and if dead it carries over --recorded in the soul and carried over, so that when the new album is getting started on the turntable the ghost of the skipping stone tape is still skipping on repetition in the distance, audible during the space between the tracks (when the child is asleep). Only by parental acknowledgement of the truth of this past life, its authentication in documents and information the existence of which the child couldn't possibly have known beforehand, can the kid move on (as in the very touching tale of James Lenninger).


Friday, July 29, 2016

Gremlins from the Kremlin (Machine Elves!)

If you've ever encountered 'machine elves' in your 'travels' you may be like me and fall out of your chair when you run past a semi-obscure Warners cartoon from the 40s, "Gremlins from the Kremlin," which has one of their weirdest songs, and weirdest animation, very very salvia / DMT. Was that shit just in the wind or was there an interdimensional disruption created by all the carnage where machine elves, the titular gremlins, spilled out of the leaky collective unconscious into 3D space time? Either way, it's startling - not necessarily what they look like, but their marching order --note the way they dance in tightlocked formation from an infinite point into existence, as if one being skipping across time's hexagonal slices, like a reality CatScan Dancer. Yeah, you've seen 'em!

If not - study yonder prop: here